Growing up (Random thoughts)

 21/11/2014

This is going to be a long essay post so please skip this if you're not interested in reading hahaha

I just stalked my own blog recently

Looking at those post, from 2012 until now

I grew up A LOT

 Physically and mentally

"Study hard for exams, work hard for house cheer

I will not make myself regret

NEVER."

This is what I wrote last year

I just want to say a million thank you to my ownself

I didn't regret, I did work hard for everything, both studies and cheerleading

Comparing now and few years ago, I changed a lot

I thought I would not give a f on SPM back then, cuz I was expecting myself to be a piano teacher

So why still i focusing on my studies? I even gave up for everything especially BM subject

I got only 9 marks for BM when I was form 2

  And now, I changed.

-"人生本来就有很多事是徒劳无功的啊"-

Even I know my future may not depends on my SPM result

I still worked hard

It's not about comparing my result with others, this is my duty

As a student, we have the responsibility to study hard

Not for parents, not for teachers 

But for ourselves

I did experience 4 kind of different jobs during school holidays since form2

Waitress, promoter, teacher, boutique staff

It taught me that study in school are SO SO SO much better than working

Trust me, you'll miss school days after you get in the society

And you'll regret for not studying hard at the end

I started to change during form3, which is my PMR year

I wished myself could turn into a girl who can juggle both academics, cheerleading and piano

I admired those talented seniors so much back then

I wished to become one of them someday

I may not be there yet

But for me, I think I did it

I did become a girl who I really wanted to be

I'm not sayin' Im good, but for the old me, yes I am

Also, I had achieved my dreams 

It's only 3 years, I improved so much

So far, I didn't experience to get in a relationship yet

It used to be my to-do-list for high school lolol

But now, I don't need one. I mean for now

Just, idk I can't accept a guy to get in a part of my life

This is so weird lol

Hopefully, I could improve a lot more in the future

Most importantly, stay healthy

Here I recommend a song for you

第三人称 - 蔡依林 The third person and I - Jolin Tsai

It says about the 1st person of me, the 2nd person of me and the 3rd person of me

Idk how to describe the situation, but you can search for it

It's really meaningful 

  "人就只有这一辈子，你现在不做以后就没有机会了。所以要勇敢，在自己还可以奋斗的时候去努力做自己想做的事，不后悔。" -吴亦凡